Innocent Chibi Insanity

cuz I haven't posted anything in a while.

2009-07-16T02:19:52Z

:/

-EvilGenius

PS: <('-'<) \(^v^)/

'_' key died

2009-02-12T01:57:26Z

LOL OH SHIT MY '_' KEY DIED.

IT'S LIKE I C_N'T TYPE _NY '_'S CUZ THE FRE_KING KEY FELL OFF _ND BROKE...

this re_lly feels weird...

_ctu_lly, I c_n kind_ type it, it's just th_t it feels weird cuz there's no key there for me to press on. you know?

...this is gonn_ be very difficult. like, how _m I gonn_ write my ess_ys without getting frustr_ted over this missing key?

_nd I kind_ w_nt to t_ke it to IT, but the possibility of them fixing my computer on time is...
slow. very slow.

I'm crying so h_rd on the inside, wtf _m I supposed to do now... hmm...

they wouldn't be _ble to t_ke _nother _ key _nd repl_ce it with _nother one, c_n they?

_nd I didn't re_lize how much _ key I use in just one sentence, seriously.

I w_s h_ving such _ good d_y so f_r too!!! lol

umm... hmm... well, I guess I'll worry _bout it tomorrow lol. wh_tever homework I c_n do now, I do th_t first. d_mn it. I c_n't even write d_mn it. XD lol

-EvilGenious

(_t le_st my sign_ture doesn't h_ve _ny _'s in it...)

So far I've been home...

2008-12-24T04:44:34Z

Can't really say I've left home at all since I came back.. lol

The eventful part of the ride back from philly was that the bus from boston to nashua go canceled. Ended up waiting in life for the 9:15 pm bus until 10 pm, pple were angry.. my father came and picked me up, got home around midnight.

I think finally things started settling.

How is everyone? Hope everyone had a safe trip home, and wasn't too affected by the ice storm...

My main goal of winter break is to see everyone, hopefully that.. happens (T_T) I miss you all. Already an obstacle had been put in my path.. meh. I guess I'll be grateful if I'm able to leave the house once.. once.. ha.. the usual.

but putting that depressing thought aside..

I'm home :D yay.
And drawing a lot. During college I couldn't even open my sketch book to draw anything, except for a dead bunny for the lulz.

This past week has been -love home, hate home, same stress.

Sounds like after my brother gets into college, my home may move to a different location. Most likely Mass, New Jersey, New York.. hopefully not california cuz that's a little too far away. Whatever happens, I hope it works out, and make my parents happy.

It's horrendous to be thoughtless, and that's how I feel recently. Been spacing out a lot, to a point I'm losing consciousness in between market basket aisles. perhaps it's the mini cold I have. hopefully.

Anyways, hope everyone's doing well (^_^)
Almost christmas -in 16 more minutes it's christmas eve.
Hopefully my family will like the gifts I got them :)

Happy holidays~ <3
-EvilGenious

Here and There.

2008-08-04T00:23:36Z

The world is scandalous.

outta whack

2008-07-29T20:17:12Z

Chocolate does some serious wonders.

The perfect medication for the chaotic blues.

-EvilGenious

My quite late realization.

2008-07-27T00:32:59Z

Oh Shmackums.

It's already the 26th. Exactly a month and a day until my classes start, and few days before that is my move-in date.

Before that date...

1) Need to transfer all important datas and programs on to my new laptop. And put Japanese on there too, so I can read and type stuff..

2) Find a place to put all my music..

3) Finish shopping for all the little things I need..

4) ...SH-crap. Text books uhhh damn damn damn damn damn. I already bought it, but I don't know when they're shipping it. 10 days before class starts is NOT a good time to ship things!!!

5) Something else I haven't thought of.

Essential things...

Quite nervous. QUITE. I'm gonna get there, and say, "OH CRAP", remembering or realizing that I've fogotten something extremely important.

I had a dream that my cellphone went off inside my pocket, and from the vibration it fell out of my pocket. It was during a lecture or something. A teacher came over and glared at me.

...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.

-EvilGenious

Yo What's up? Long time no see!

2008-07-22T14:10:07Z

Do you recognize people from your dreams?
I'm not talking about your friends from reality, or celebrities you know that comes out.

People you've only met while you're in your little dreams...

I was in the passenger seat, with my brother driving.
Why was he driving? I don't know, but he was speeding.
Every curve I've managed to scream "SLOW DOWN!!", with him grinning next to me. This will not only be a dream. It will be a reality in some future when he gets a driver's license and is driving me somewhere. Some supernatural force is warning me beforehand.

We pull into this little un-paved driveway in middle of nowhere, surrounded by trees it's practically a jungle. And this guy -younger or older it doesn't matter he was taller than me- came out and greeted us with crap load of posters. He was cleaning his room, and about to put them into the garage which happened to be some distance away from his actual house...

This guy though, really sharp and dark eyes with spikey hair, has somewhat of an attitude but a little shy, seems anti-social but can't get away from the crowd of people, I recognized him from another dream immediately.

And I was like, "Hey what's up? Long time no see!" and conversed for a while. I even talked about LaSalle. You know when you talk about shopping for college to a guy in a dream, you're stressed and thinking about it too much.

I wish I knew his name. And! He's even grown up a little since the last time I saw him too. Last time being few years ago. Apparently my dreams work in real-time. Crazy yo.

Oh, and after that, we played with firecrackers (inside the garage... where there's no windows). There was this Coil cracker, where when you light it, it snaps around it was pretty cool.

THEN.

Another man came in, like, morphing out of the alarm clock (because just around that time, my alarm clock beeped and I managed to shut it off, but the sunlight came into my eyes so I was half dreaming, half not).

Imagine Kira, Yagami Light. But not as cool-looking, more built, and smiles more. This new guy, which I remember seeing him from some other dream in the past, came morphing from the unwanted light and decided to pick on the spikey haired guy. They started fighting and..

my alarm clock rang again. 8:10 am, I was fully awake.

A cool thought:

It would be pretty cool if you could live in two worlds. In reality, and in dream. Well, technically we're doing that right now, but fully conscious. The biggest problem would be that some not-so-smart people would mix up reality and dream, and try to jump off of the Empire State Building thinking they could fly.

-EvilGenious

Disorganization

2008-06-26T16:36:11Z

I think the ONE HUGE reason I keep procrastinating on college is because of their lack of ability to keep things organized.

I know they have to deal with thousands of students.
I know they've got a lot going on.

But it's been several months since we've requested housing, and still nothing.

As well as my Doctor who should've already filled out my health forms >> it's due in few days, and I sent the thing in 3 weeks ago. My dad has already called, and the nurses even had the packet in their hands.
I need to call them again today to rush them to do it...

I can't stand "waiting" until the last minute, even though I do it all the time. HYPOCRITE. Yes, I know.

I've been trying to find out what I may need for college, and yeah most of it's common sense. The Lasalle website tells me nothing however.
I guess I'm not "searching far enough"

Do you really need to dig to the otherside of the world to find the information you need? I've passed China and hit the next galaxy just to find the meal-plan information, if you ask me.

And every time I try to find something out, it's literally impossible to find it, and so I get extremely frustrated.

I don't know if I need new shots. Pennsylvania apparently has different laws, and I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE FOUND THIS OUT WEEKS AGO SO IF I NEEDED THE NEW SHOTS, I COULD GET THEM BEFORE ORIENTATION.

I think I won't be able to register for classes < worrying too much?

More clawing at the Lasalle Website. It's a good university, I know, but I'm still feel like bombing the website for its disorganization.

I ALSO HATE BROKEN LINKS. UGH. THERE'S TOO MANY THAT LEADS ME TO NOTHING.

...does anyone else has this stress?

Thank heavens for LiveJournal. I can't imagine what I would take out my stress on if I couldn't rant here.

-EvilGenious

Edit: must... keep... calm...

Pictures

2008-06-23T17:09:11Z

Uhhh I dunno how to post pics here.

So the Semi pics are up in Facebook, check it out if you haven't seen them yet :)

I will get the graduation pics up laterz?

Yay.
I actually have a bank account in the US now lol
Took me 11 years? XD haha.

I need to, before the day is over:

Clean my room
Make a list of whats needed at college
Update Deviant Art >> I'll need to draw something.

...I'll probably only have time to clean my room, it's ridiculously messy with only one trail in the center to get to my computer. But even that trail is cut in half by my sketch book pile. At least there's no need to clean my closet...

-EvilGenious

Tomorrow will be...

2008-06-12T19:19:16Z

Partly Disasterous.

I found out this morning that none of the Seniors has to go to the Middle school thing.

HOWEVER.

Sam is attendence failing her morning classes, thus she can't go.
I know Matt is (reluctantly) going, and I haven't talked to the other girl at all... Kristie?

Sam says that Jill or Cassandra may be able to go, however they never filled out their green cards so they're automatically out. Which means there'll only be two people there... and they're not exactly as energetic as we are.

I don't even know if they remember. m(-_-)m

I also need to find that poster I used for International night... for some reason it has disappeared, and is not in my room or anywhere where my memory serves me. Crap.

I kinda wished we were a little bit more prepared.
I tried...

but didn't work out too well.

Well, I guess we'll see how things go. It'll be a shame if we had to cancel it. I don't mind going, if it didn't mean I was going to miss our last class meeting and get my yearbook.

I can already see in people's faces their year is over for them.
I'm ready for semi and sixflags, aren't you?
I'm done entirely with school... but not my friends XD

Time to read. bye

-EvilGenious

Repetitive Reoccurance

2008-06-07T01:25:18Z

Senior Skip Day >> Totally skipped it.

Band: Surprised at how many seniors were actually there. No surprise at the people who did skip.

Calc: only 7 people in total, took a quiz and I spaced on the last question. The quiet class was even more quieter than before.

World History: All the seniors were there, the 4 of us. Was kinda surprised, actually. I thought I would be the only one there. I almost got my head sliced off with a text book that mr Petrigno threw. He does this thing where he frisbees his paperback text books to students. It's quite amazing actually, but unluckily for me, he slipped when he was throwing one to the guy in the back. Went right over my head only cuz I ducked XD

Painting: Few seniors, TJ apparently likes my painting. Knowing me I'll probably never see him again, I'll give it to him as a present.

Lunch: Silly freshmens cutting. QQ had a pretty funny book. And then me, Meaghan and Cassandra ended up talking about tampons and pads, and how hard it is to use a tampon sometimes. QQ hid his face and kept turning pages... faster and faster as the conversation progressed.

Creative Writing: The one person who I thought would not be here was here. Well. I got nothing done, just spent time on facebook, found out a way to override blocked sites thanks to Peter who sat next to me. He's so nice <3.

English: 9 people in total, pretty interesting conversations. It's gonna be chill for the remaining days. We're almost done, just one more easy project to go.

Physics: 6 people, as expected. Actually, I thought it would be just me, Cassandra and Erika. but 3 other boys showed up. We played with magnets the entire class.

---------------------

Interesting day today, in a way.
I actually had fun.

So.

As if I don't unintentionally stalk him enough, Ed's name had popped up in almost every other class. Especially during English class, where we had this 10 minute discussion on his mom and himself.

I think I'll miss stalking him when I leave for college. (;_;)
Lol

...I wonder how many people I'll stay in touch with after I leave?
I'm afraid of disconnecting from everyone with such great distance between everyone. And I suck at staying in touch, so...

We'll see, I guess.

-EvilGenious

STOMP

2008-06-04T20:14:27Z

...I'd appreciate it if people stopped stomping at me going up the stairs, just because I can't run up the stairs like Robert H.

That's twice. Third time, I'm kicking them down the stairs.

Going up to world history class, this kid in my class literally stomps up the stairs, and another kid yells at me saying "You're too slow!!"

Why the hell are they in a rush to get to class? Is their class SO AMAZING that they have to get there the moment bell rings to get out? Well praise that class, cuz I've never seen a class THAT worth going to.

I glare back, and the kid immediately goes "oh, I'm sorry. I'm a little heavy so I stomp up the stairs."

Get some balls, damn it. Be like that kid who told me to go faster, and don't make up some lame excuse and attempt to cover up your irritation.

Then jerks in the lunch line decide to shove me over. I glare at them too and they shut up and stopped moving for 2 whole seconds. *rolls eyes*

Kids these days are just not worth the air they breathe, especially after reading Christie's post. I hope no one cries when they die a horrible death, because they're not worth a tear from anyone.

-EvilGenious

I hit a crotch today...

2008-06-03T20:31:54Z

And exactly that happened.

During World History, I was in the process of pointing to Kate who sat right next to me to point out to Mr. Petrigno something.

But at that exact moment, Shawn (or Shine, as the guys in my class likes to call him) walked right by where my hand was.

Me: "Hey Mr Petrigno, you forgot Ka..."

*smacks Shawn's crotch*

Me: "...uh.."

Shawn: "...*blush*..um.."

And I think people who sat behind me saw it too, cuz they were all giggling.

My gosh, what an intensely awkward and embarrassing moment XD
Thankfully, I think, he knows it's accidental. I hope.

Fight today 4th period, I didn't see it but saw the bloody remains. Lovely lovely.

Need to come up with an awesome announcement for tuesday. I'm pretty excited about that.

Hillary Clinton Dropping out of the presidential race? Who will it be, Obama or McCain... Personally, I want [bleep out] to win.

So I'm probably not skipping any of the Senior Skip day.

KELLY WE WILL BE TOGETHER ON THOSE TWO FRIDAYS, AND GO TO OUR CLASS MEETING BY OURSELVES. XD

out of time, more update laters

-EvilGenious

EDIT:

Ok, now that I'm back from dinner, time to elaborate. Not that anyone would really care, but I feel like typing and procrastinating. So this entire thing below here is just to get my thought out, I'm not trying to make a statement or anything. I just like getting my mind written out... organization lol

This friday, I know I'll probably be the only one in calculus class, and english class, and physics class, and the only senior in creative writing, and the same for painting class. World History is mostly sophomores anyways.

Why I'm not skipping? Cuz I know I won't be able to get by my parents. Staying home would never be an option cuz my brother is the most honest person you know, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with me (and they know it) so I can't pretend to be sick, and it's not like I can hide out somewhere for the day. There's the option of being truthful and telling them that everyone's skipping, but being my parents, they won't ever let me do such a thing. No option.

And the friday the 13th, well... there's a class meeting 3rd period, we're getting yearbooks after the meeting, and there's the presentation for the Middle School thing.

This mosquito bite on my neck is starting to bother me a lot, and making me want to just cut it off... XD

There's only few more weeks left for me to spend time with my Junior, sophomore, and freshmen friends. I'm quite okay with skipping the senior skip days lol.

On a random note, I hate my anti-temperature adjusting body of mine. When it's hot, I uncontrollably get hot. But when I turn the fan on, I immediately freeze and start feeling sick. And during the winter, I'm practically wrapped up in every layer of clothes possible. Everyone tells me that PA has a good temp that will be good for me. Not too hot, not too cold. We'll see? lol

Ok, time to finish the movie review

Laterz
-EvilGenious

Debating

2008-05-25T04:21:59Z

Do I wanna go to the semi or not...

I'm more interested in the Six Flags trip than the Semi, really.

My parents are taking me to the mall to see if there's gonna be any good dresses. (whatever semi dresses are supposed to look like...) and if I can't find one I like/isn't cheap enough, than I'm not going.

If I do find one... well... I'll think about it.

My mom says I should just go with the sophomore semi dress mom made me. While I would wear it there, I dunno if it's that kind of dress I should be wearing. And there's the other gray sakura-flower one. Hand-made too, but not really a semi-dress ish. I'm really grateful that mom made me both of them, but...

I dunno.

It's stupid to spend so much money on something like this.
Is it worth it? Is the question I'm debating.

If it wasn't $60 for a single paper... *sigh*

...I'm feeling really guilty cuz My parents just bought us a Wii (Wii Sports is soo cute! And we also got Smash bros Brawl -omg, specific charas are sooo cute and hawt and adorable. Like Ike, Link, Kirby <3, Pitt, Marth, etc etc...) which made me procrastinate on physics even more... I can't solve it. *sigh*

lol when I first told my mom I don't think I want to go, she pouted and said, "is it cuz you don't have a date to go with?" Seriously, no. Am I that kind of a person...? Do I seem like that kind of a desperate person...?

The more I think about it, the more I think I shouldn't go.
(Weighing the pros and cons. I don't really look good at all in dresses anyways?)

Oh well.
I don't think I will be missing much.
We'll see what happens tomorrow.

-EvilGenious

International

2008-05-23T20:13:22Z

Stressful, sleep-deprived week.

IT WAS WORTH IT.

I learned more about Japanese politics, it's history, and liking a little bit more about my mother country.

Our booth was Amazing. Good way to end our last year at the international festival (^_^) I was so excited to see Kelly and Jen in their kimonos/yukatas <3 so pretty. I wished I owned own too. I wanted to wear one for Graduation, but my parents were like "You're not wearing an informal Yukata to a formal ceremony. And you also don't fit in your kimono anymore. And you're not borrowing mothers. So... no." lol

I'm so tired right now, I'm able to fall asleep anywhere. Including the bus.

For the first time in a while, I got to talk to Max, the korean exchange student. Omg, for the longest time I thought he was mad at me or something. But he's not. Like Kelly said, he's probably just that kind of a person... (although I didn't know if you meant Max or Matt lol both of them are, really) I don't mean to be creepy, but he was in one of my recent dreams. Forshadowing!? WHAT!? Just kidding.

But it was a peaceful dream. I think it's cuz I just finished watching Heroes and Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. I love asian movies lol <3

I'm not gonna lie, I know everyone else knows alot more about Japan than me in a lot of things. But thinking about it, I don't think I would've known as much as everyone even if I did live in Japan still lol.

But if it wasn't for everyone, I don't think I would've cared as much, and wouldn't of had this much fun lol

So many thanks guys (^_^)

It's been a good week. I avoided Physics test, and a three day weekend where I get to spend all three days procrastinating and doing rest of physics. GAH. but that's ok.

-EvilGenious

the dangerous sign of laziness and enchanted air

2008-05-19T23:13:49Z

It's 7 pm.

Had a sectional, picked up my father from the air port, it was around 4:30 ish.

Finished the 2 La Corda D'Oro manga that father brought back from Japan -it still continues.
And then I continued to watch where I left off on the Anime version.

It's 7 pm.

What a delicious use of procrastination.

Watching La Corda D'Oro made me think.

For those of you that don't know that anime, it's basically a beautiful anime revolved around the power of music (with of course, romance <3). Group of musicians discover their own unique style and power of music, as well as what it means to them by helping each other out, while competing for the first place at the school competition.
The anime is very serious about instruments and music, that you know they're not making crap up just to make the characters interesting.

My mom owns the video games that originally started the whole series, and every music is played by professionals, and every aspect is true to the feelings and hard work of musicians, and of course music itself. It is a simple romance game, but the substance that goes into the game, I give it the highest rating. Especially when I'm a musician too, though not that good.

So watching the anime made me think.

Today after school, Salvucci game up to me excitedly saying he figured out the C. chord progression or something, and explained to me how this musician played his pieces in intervals of major 3rd chords.... and such.
I'm a pianist as well but I couldn't really follow what he was saying.

But listening to him really made me realize that Nick's life revolves around music. Even during physics he's trying to figure out music, and not only Nick but other people in the school as well.

"It must be nice to be so passionate about something," was what I thought as I listened to him.

The character's in the anime -all of their lives either revolves around already, or begins to revolve around music, and discovers how music is part of their life. How important their instrument are to them -their violin, flute, cello, trumpet, clarinet...

And it's not just music. I know a lot of people are passionate (to a dangerous level) about videogames and anime itself, art, theatre, singing, sports, writing...

While almost everyone around me is so passionately into something, I just can't find a thing that I'm THAT interested or passionate about.

Music and art is some of my strong points, but it's not at that level of "passionate", you know?
At every competition I go to, or at evaluation, the judges always tell me I have potential to get better, that I'm one step to being "outstanding". But do I have the self-"push" to get there? Simply, no. I don't have the heart for it.

I guess I admire them and am a little jealous.

lol what am I saying, right?

Maybe I'll find something in the future. It's not too late.

I'm just afraid I'm gonna end up letting life slip past my fingers without much meaning.

eh, time to do homework.

-EvilGenious

JCC workshop

2008-05-14T22:16:31Z

So, Our International Night Workshop is on Friday of next week.

We have a block class~! Cuz that friday is a thursday block.

Now, specifically to JCC officers and members...

Mrs. Putney told me to write a little intro thing (probably that description thing they have when we sign up for workshops) and I was supposed to pass it in at that moment, but she said I can pass it in first thing tomorrow morning. (Cuz I needed to go somewhere else fast... and find a ride before they all went home)

So,

It just saids "Title: ________________________..."
and we're supposed to do a little intro.

What do you guys wanna put on it?

-EvilGenious

The Systematic Diminution

2008-05-09T03:42:20Z

I need... impact.
Something that's exciting, adrenalin rush.

Every day is different but it's not... different enough

Though I love my house and my family, I can't wait for a change of scenery.

Isn't life easy when you live so carelessly?

Why is death so attractive?
Sometimes I don't understand but find myself admiring.

She's made some bad decisions recently. What's up?
No sympathy if certain people find out about the other thing.
Pointless protest.
Do they really think it'll work?

Take that boat right there.
Row your own boat with your own hands.
Don't let people who will like to see you disappear steer your boat.

-EvilGenious

KareKano

2008-05-03T03:19:07Z

So I watched the KareKano anime.

I was aware it ended without actually finishing, and the manga finishes... but I dunno, I didn't like the way it kept switching the style. From paper cut outs to black and white, and then back to original. It just narrows my vision... (?)

Does anyone own all 21 Karekano mangas?

---

After watching many animes this week, I realized my inability to remember character's names. After day worth of Karekano, I still couldn't remember some chara's names... I remember Tsubasa, Arima, Miyazawa.. Yukinon lol. Aaaaah I can't even remember the sketchy guy's name, or the bb player guy who came back to town for revenge towards Sakuya! Oh, I remember Maho, but I swear there's something wrong with me sometimes.

---

Tomorrow is a busy day

--

Back to coloring.

-EvilGenious

Glued to the screen

2008-05-01T01:18:33Z

My metabolism is sure to have shut down already from long-term affect of sitting on my butt all week just staring at the computer screen.

What I have accomplished so far:

I...

1) Cleaned my room -all my clothes are switched for the summer (though it's cold right now JUST when I decided to do this...)

2) Watched Mahou Tsukai Tai

3) Watched Get Backers: I LOVE Dr. Jackyl/Akabane (or Jackal, however you prefer to spell his name), and needless to say, I searched FanFiction.net for interesting pairings. Yes, I do that. Although most of the stories I find on there, I could easily just switch names around because it focuses not on the characters' personalities but something else... eh. ANYWAYS

4) Watched the Japanese version of Hana Kimi, Ikemen Paradise <3 <3 <3 Sekime is soooo cute!!!!!!!! And Nakatsu-kun too~. Ka... crap, I can't remember who the psychic guy was who can read auras, but he was awesome too. I cried at the end cuz it touched my heart. I really don't mind the Japanese acting -yes, it doesn't seem natural, but that adds to the deliciousness/ goodness of the drama. ...Then again, when you put yourself in middle of a Japanese group, people kinda act like that... not nearly so "actor"-like, but close... I can't really explain it.

5) And that's about it.

6) Oh, and I grew another year older.

7) ...And that's about it.

No life.
...what else can I do, really. BUT ANYWAYS.

I need to do something productive (aside from actually practicing my alto for the scales though I'm starting to not care as much, and actually finishing my art project which I'll probably procrastinate 'til the weekend) like... I don't even know.

[mini rant] I'm starting to think nothing I do is really "productive". When I start thinking that literally everything is a waste of time, what is there to do?

My parents said that I can get a job over the summer. Yay.
Where? I dunno yet.
How do you get an application? Do you have to go up and talk to someone? (I hope not...)

The only worry is I hope I'll be making more than what the gas to get to the place will cost me. $3.45 right now. Whatever happened to those days where a gallon cost 0.99 cents? I joke with my dad saying we should've stocked up on the gasoline and stored them somewhere while it was cheaper. How we would've managed that, I haven't got the slightest clue.

By the way, Japanese gal-Slang is nearly impossible to decipher. I'm surprised Sano even understood her... It's literally chat speak abbreviations extreme. It's like taking LOL and abbreviating that, and saying it out loud. ...? yeah.

Laterz all~
-EvilGenious

Ganked from Mike

2008-04-27T02:58:06Z

ABC of Me
The Letter A
Are you available?: Yup
What is your age?: 18 going 19 in 4 more days
What annoys you?: Certain personalities, people who has no morals, politics, hate
The Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: Not really. But it's a perfect size
When is your birthday?: April 30th, 1989
Who is your best friend?: (^_^)
The Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: Kompeito. Pure sugar + it's cute.
Who's your crush?: I have a 1/2 crush... lol other than that, BAN from GET BACKERS DAMN HE'S HOT > yay for non-existant person crushes
When was the last time you cried?: Sometime last year.
The Letter D
Do you daydream?: Every Single moment of my day. It's a disease
What's your favorite kind of dog?: German... something. and shi-tsu or whatever.
What day of the week is it?: Saturday?
The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: Scrambled and rolled with sugar
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: I think so... when I was in first grade, maybe?
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Blink. Breathe. Space out. Be ignorant. Tick someone off, get in someone's way, pollute, death
The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: Yup!
Do you use fly swatters?: I. Hate. Bugs. Period.
Have you ever used a foghorn?: ??
The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: Occassionally... but they kinda hurt
Are you a giver or a taker?: Mostly a giver, but certain extent. I don't exactly like taking depending on circumstances.. but whatever gets me by
Do you like gummy candies?: No...
The Letter H
How are you?: IN LOVE WITH BAN. AND DR. JACKEL
What color is your hair?: Black.
The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream?: Coffee, Banana, Melon, Maccha, Charamel
Have you ever ice skated?: Nope
Do you play an instrument?: Piano and Alto Sax XD
The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: I don't pay attention to that...
Do you wear jewelry?: Not enough lol. I wear at least 5...7? 10.
The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: People in school sometimes. Like everyone in the hallway pushing me aside, or taking up too much space, or idiot racists, or "I'm too cool" guys and girls, bitchy people... just too many people >>genocide.
Do you want kids?: Yup!
Where did you go for kindergarten?: ...Where did I go... Place in Japan... In Kobe... it was a huge kindergarten as big as thortons ferry... where more drama existed than recess... *can't remember* but I remember almost everything that happened there > insane memory
The Letter L
Are you laid back?: Depends on what.
Do you lie?: I try not to. But then again, I stink at it. People find out in the end anyways, why bother?
The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: V for Vandetta, Life is beautiful, etc.
Do you still watch Disney movies?: Yup
Do you like mangos?: <3 I love them
The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: Nope.
What is your real name?: Yuki.
Whats your favorite number?: 2. I'm not first nor last.
Do you prefer night over day?: I like both... But I stay inside regardless of weather or time
The Letter O
What's your one wish?: Reach Nirvana.
Are you an only child?: Nope, I have a brother (^_^)
The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: Unwanted rumors spreading about me. Not that I do anything that's rumor worthy, but I hate people talking about me...
What are your pet peeves?: People who thinks they're all that and that the world revolves around them, and always has to be the center of attention and create so many drama for themselves and whine about it.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: Honesty, trustworthy, homor, reason, logic, creativeness, kindness
The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote?: "For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone, I had only to wish that there be a large crowd of spectators the day of my execution and that they greet me with cries of hate." -The Stranger
Are you quick to judge people?: We have to, if we want to get to know people. Those judgements change over time.
The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: I'm stubborn. I go either way.
Are you one to cry?: Over happy scenes, yes. But with everything else, not really.
The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Sun. Rain depresses me.
Do you like snow?: I love the snow <3
What's your favorite season?: One that's not too hot nor too cold. Doesn't seem to exist.
The Letter T
What time is it?: 10:47 pm
What time did you wake up?: 10:30 am
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: There was this one time... but I can't remember at all.
The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: ...why wouldn't I be?
Underwear or boxers?: lol totally boxers. ...jk, underwear.
The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: I actually like everything... maybe
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Japan. Or to an amusement park. Canobie, Six Flags, Bush Gardens, etc...
The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: Staring at artistically inspirational people. I scared a sophomore doing so. I became kinda friends with them, 'til I scared him even more and annoyed him I think. >FAIL. Too bad, he was adorable too.
Where do you live?: Here in front of my computer where I practically never leave cuz I HAVE NO LIFE.
What's your worst fear?: Bugs crawling all over me. I can't even stand ants. Nor any bugs for that matter.
The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Yep.
Have you seen the x-games?: ? X-rated games?
Do you own a xylophone?: Nope... it'll be pretty to have one though.
The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: Yup, on moderation.
What's one thing you yearn for?: Peace
The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?: Taurus
Do you believe in the zodiac?: Yup
Favorite zoo animal?: Snakes? Pretty birdies, Panthers, Tigers, etc...

I'm starting to watch Get Backers right now cuz I read the manga 'til some point I can't remember. OMG I love their art. The guys are actually masculine looking and HAWT. And not some twig skinny girly-man. AND THEIR VOICE HOLY CRAP.

I was originally going to find Black Cat on youtube, but all I can find is this weird pathetic dubbing and I hate dubs, so I can't find anything more than Episode 1, part 1... lol Oh well.

I felt accomplished today cuz I drew up my new Facebook profile picture. Yes, that's me, even though I look nothing like that.... But that's me! In my imaginary world where everything is pretty... X_X >>low self-esteem.
...wow, I sounded very pathetic then. lol Anyways (reassures myself here)

Ok, back to watching.

Laterz all~
-EvilGenious

personality test thing

2008-04-21T20:47:42Z

My Personality


Neuroticism	49
Extraversion	59
Openness to Experience	53
Agreeableness	36
Conscientiousness	30

You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You lead a leisurely and relaxed life. You would prefer to sit back and smell the roses than indulge in high energy activities. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done.

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The best Ugg Boots.

You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. Mostly your emotions are on an even keel and you do not get depressed easily. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense. You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. Mostly your emotions are on an even keel and you do not get depressed easily. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking.

You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. There are times when you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary, however you are mostly candid, frank and sincere. People find it moderately easy to relate to you. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.

Interesting... (^_^)

-EvilGenious

nervous

2008-04-12T14:01:40Z

I'm nervous. I hate stages. I'm so nervous right now, I messed up every piece I'm supposed to perform during practice. My mom is yelling at me about how crappy I'm playing, my brother shattered his rice bowl, my dad looks depressed.

I hate performances, I hate stages, I hate competitions.

Nervous nervous nervous.

The only thing different about this year's competition is that I haven't cried and felt like giving up. Which is good. But I'm playing so crappy right now.

It's like I could've been practicing these 5 pieces for life, and I still would play as if I just sight read when I go in front of people.

It's not the first time I've gone on to a stage by myself. But everysingle time my hand starts shaking and my feet on the pedal and on the floor is trembling so bad I feel like I'm going to break the piano just by the vibration. My hands shake so bad I'm afraid of missing the keys and playing the wrong notes and chords.

I don't know why I always feel nervous only hours away, and even minutes. People are usually nervous about a week away. My biggest disadvantage. I can never get used to this feeling. I'm just so nervous right now.

..did I mention that I am so freakin' nervous right now?

The two possible results to this competition is that I will walk off the stage smiling, or I'll walk off the stage with a lower self-esteem. And avoid all eye contact whatsoever.

I know whatever happens on there, that'll be just that, and it's not like I can take back a sound that's already been made, so if I make a mistake, oh well. But still, I'm just so nervous.

I know I'll be better than last year. The fact I've memorized them all is a huge step. But I know I'll mess up something. I really hope not, but I have this bad feeling I will. It's almost time to go, and I feel kinda better that I let this all out... but I'm still nervous lol

Well, ttyl. Off to plymouth.

-EvilGenious

Lesson

2008-04-11T19:31:18Z

Tuesday, Japanese club:

Is anyone planning on doing a lesson that day?

Because I really want to do a day on the Haruhi Dance. (does anyone know any other dance like thing that I can learn? Aside from Lucky Star?)

And at the international night, will someone dance with me at that mini stage they have every time? (maybe sing along too?) It's my last year, all feelings of embarrassment is gone lol but I don't wanna do it alone... XD

I kinda want to dance the full-version, if that's okay...

so... yup!

The international thing can wait, but is it okay if we do a day on the dance? let me know! Thanks (^_^)

Tomorrow is my Granate-State competition on piano.
I hope I'll do well there.
A guy named Sam, who comes to the lessons after me, was so encouraging and so nice! I have to do well for him lol and John too, because I haven't seen him in forever and I *need* to hear his amazing piano. I've only heard him play once, and it was freakin' amazing.

20 minutes of memorized playing. It'll be better than last time, I promise lol (I didn't have anything memorized except one piece last time..)

I'm gonna miss piano after I go to college.
To think, I used to hate it so much. Now I love it. and is part of my life.

-EvilGenious

Cower

2008-03-24T21:16:04Z

...

Sometimes when the big man on the top is upset, there's nothing that could bring hack his humor except success and positive results.

All I can do is just keep my mouth shut and try not to be in the way as much as possible.

I don't know how to feel at the moment.
Sometimes I hate emotional dilemmas.

Especially when you know the answer is right there, and it's a "no go".

I also found out today that a man of pure innocence (and silence)... may be on the road to corruption. It hasn't happened yet. But I really really really really really hope he'll be intelligent about it, and won't let things push him around.

Otherwise, there goes his reputation down where I had taken mine once.

Bad. Bad Idea..

...in another words, today sucked.
As simple as that.

Hoping tomorrow will be a better day.
Today, everyone just seemed to be on the edge. Or more rather, over it and has fallen, about to crash.

Good news is, I'm learning to eat less. And hopefully be able to remember to do a little mini exercise in midist of my homework pile. Tomorrow is a day to fail because it's pasta day, but I'll be moving around the entire day. Hopefully that'll burn some calories, right? lol

Laterz all
-EvilGenious